Challenge 18

165. What confuses you most in life, and why? (University of Virginia)

The fact that we all eventually die, the fact that the world is becoming so retarded, and the fact that we all have to be so busy. Why do we study? Why do we live if we are going to die? Why are we running so fast? Why are we running in such a way? Why is the modern world like "this" but not like "that?" What is the purpose? What is that stupid guy doing, when he tries to act so cool? Why are you so jealous? Why can't people live together? Why discrimination? Why meanness? Why racism? (I mean serious racism that leads to discrimination and killing - I do make racist jokes sometimes for fun) Why killing and murdering? Why b*tching? Why the problem? Everything confuses me.
 I started getting confused when I realized people appreciate according to the ethos, not talent. Ethos might be a skill too, but can easily turn into bullying. For example, the friendless idiot in your class cracks the best joke of the year. No one's going to laugh. Everyone's just going to frown and say that it's lame, not because it's not funny but because of who he is. However, when the popular guy says the lamest sh*t ever, everyone laughs their asses off for their asses' sake. Well, if you suck and make a lame joke like me, then you are just a douche. Starting from this, I observed so many other things that confused the crap out of me. I didn't get why people were acting like assholes. Then I realized much later, that most of the world's population are born as assholes and grown as assholes, not "acting" like assholes. Then time passed, and I woke up one day just to find myself also becoming an asshole. I guess my instincts realized that was the only way to survive in the world of assholes. Then again, people started maturing up and concentrating more on studies than being like little b*tches. Now, the deal was to dominate the class; to become the "cool" guy that everyone respects. Trends always changed and still does. I got so damn confused, I didn't know what to do. I was lost. I felt so bad. I didn't know what the hell was going on. It disappointed me too much. From then, I lost all my energy and will power. I was confused and exhausted with this world. I started hating everyone in the entire school. I started being alone and separating myself. Then I again joined the world after a year of such depression. And still I'm confused, but now I have learned to live with this stupid sh*t of life.    :)

SUMMARY:
"Life" confuses me the most in life.

Challenge 17

180. If you could ban anything in the world, what would it be and why?

I would definitely, and without hesitation, ban drinking and smoking. It is everywhere - it's very legal and accessible. It is now so easy to spot people squatting down and sucking on all that harmful substance into their body with a bitter frown. And as I walk past them, the smell of burnt poison penetrates right through my nose and disgusts me.
I hate it.
It is totally unnecessary. People are spending money to kill themselves. To get themselves sick and to suffer an unbearable torture in the future. How will they feel when their body is destroyed and they are lying on the hospital bed all helpless and in pain, and have to take surgeries, medication, etc that they will certainly not like very much? Are they aware? Maybe, maybe not.
It just doesn't make a single sense to me. It makes me angry. There are so many other things to do in life! Why spend so much of your life trying to end it? It is NOT COOL. And it is not funny either. Just stop. It's disgusting. And disgustingly irresponsible.
And I want to blame the people who advertise it, make it look cool, and sell it. A bunch of unconscious, heartless, and stupid animals. They deserve to take in all that into their body at once and dissolve and die in the chemical. They are murderers. They need to go f*** themselves if they want to, but they shouldn't spread it to other people and harm them too. That's is not right. I abhor you people. If I see you face to face I'll rip your face off and stuff it into your own mouths. You have done similar destruction to countless other people.
So many of my uncles are drinkers and trust me they cause a lot of trouble. A person who I love so much smokes. And that breaks my heart. I really hope she stops one day. Please stop. I don't want you to waste money on such stupid stuff and also harm your health. It is bad for health.
I really wish I could ban smoking and drinking, and get rid of it forever.

Challenge 15

21. If you had the gift of telepathy, the ability to read other people's minds, would you use this gift or not? Explain. (Middle East Technical University/93)

A very tempting offer, but I refuse.
I don't have the ability to control this ability. I'll become even more arrogant and cocky. I'll probably show off to everyone eventually, which may even lead to me to danger. I'll read everyone's mind out of doubt or curiosity, and go crazy. My brain will explode. Also, I might read a mind, which would have been better if I didn't, and destroy my own life. My life will be too complicated and I'll get too much head ache. I won't be able to handle it. I also won't be able to make friends or date anyone. It will harm me so much in every way. It will kill me. I don't want it. It's a torture. First few days will be fun but the rest of my life will be ... just imagine having everyone else's thoughts in your mind additional to your already stifling brain full from your own thoughts. That's going to literally cause an explosion. I believe our brain's RAM is not that high.
Also, I have no thoughts of joining the X-men either. I want to live like a human. And I don't want this not very cool ability that will be a pain in the brain. If it was Superman's ability or Spider-man's I would have definitely agreed. :)

Challenge 14

6. If you were to look back on your high school years, what advice would you give to someone beginning their high school career? (Simmons)

Hello, any lucky stranger that comes across this priceless advice on high school from me.
High school is the smallest part of your life, but also a very crucial part. Therefore enjoy, while also trying your best in studies and also whatever else be your interest. High school will be the foundation of your life, so you should really "live" it. And when you are in high school, you are an unstoppable, passionate, and healthy teenager. The best time of your life will be spent through this stage of life, so just live it as to have no regrets in the future. Really, this IS the time, so do your best. That's all I can say.
By "do your best," I mean: approach new concepts and cultures, be tolerant, find your interest and potentials, practice your ass off till you become the best at it in the school at least, experience bad things, learn valuable lessons from them and change yourself to adapt to the society the way it will benefit you, learn how to socialize, try different things - even the things that might be embarrassing that will be too late to do when you are grown up and in the bigger world, and study hard. Become a real human being. Not a douchebag.
If that was too confusing, here are some examples.
If you have stage fright, take every single opportunity to go on stage in front of crowd. High school won't even matter a tiny bit in the future. When you are in college, that's where life starts. So don't be afraid to take that step and practice and eventually become better. Don't be afraid to embarrass yourself, because if you don't embarrass yourself now, you will have to in bigger and bigger stage. Anyways, if you do this, by the time you graduate you won't have stage fright anymore. This slight embarrassment will be such a helpful boost in the future and you'll appreciate that you have done it. Then, you are now ahead of other college freshmen that might still have stage fright, who probably didn't bother to get over it. I'm still so grateful that my friends teased me with my English when I was younger. Well, they still do (I'm a Korean, who started from the basics of English only from fourth grade so is not really good at it). It is extremely annoying and humiliating at that very moment, but it makes sure that you don't make that mistake again somewhere where you can get humiliated even more. High school prepares you for later. It prevents worse situations by giving bad ones now.
So don't feel bad. Just keep going. And above all, try your freaking best at what the hell ever it is you are doing that possibly can help you with your own life.
When you get a chance, just do it. If you don't have a chance, then make one. If you just came across a new culture, then give yourself a try. If it's really not for you, throw it away and don't waste time. If you like it but are not good at it, practice!!! That's the only way you can be good at it. Don't just try twice and say you are not good at it. No one is good from the beginning. Genetics do matter, but if you really like it, practicing will get you there. No drop of sweat is waste. Things like guitar (instruments are good), art (is very useful too), or dance.

And after all these, you have to study, which I'm failing at right now. That should be the main and the most basic thing.
However, I'll delete this sentence if I become successful in the future. Well, I'll have to try hard.

Challenge 13

1. What have you undertaken or done on your own in the last year or two that has nothing to do with academic work? (Northwestern)

I have lived my entire life without much concern of studies. My target is on the opposite direction, and I can't really shoot an arrow into two directions at the same time, or switch where it's going, or even hit one target and the other after. I have only one arrow. One life, one me.
I did so many things. I practiced some skills useful in life. And by skills, I mean things like dancing. I performed in talent show, I learned and taught others many dances, I did countless drawings (on my class notebooks), etc. I love doing those things because they are much more creative, cool, fun than school. And not everyone is interested in them! How awesome is that? Now I can actually be better than others and show off. I guess I'm just born to be like this. It is my destiny. Therefore how much ever hard I try, I can't study. This is how my life is going to be. I can try to change but ultimately can't change. I have done everything that has nothing to do with academic work when I was out of school. In civilized and respectful words, I developed myself to be more skilled. In simple words, I had fun. I did a huge painting for the dorm - I'll take a picture of it and upload it sometime on the blog.
Recently, I started a dance club! Just to tell you.
If this question's purpose was to see what I can do outside studying because everyone does that, I appreciate it since I'm a person planning to pursue a life that has nothing to do with studies. I'll probably do the best in school if it was to measure what students can do besides studying. I can say that much.
However, if this question was trying to find out how much I don't care about academics and how distracted I am, then I hate you.

Challenge 12

183. Do you think that you have the qualifications of a good parent? Discuss.

I am thrilled by this question because I can't wait to be a parent.
Of course the answer is yes.
I am going to try so hard to be the most awesome parent in the whole world. First of all, I'll make sure my kids don't end up having their parents divorced - because I'll marry someone I love so much and I'll love her till I die, and even if I don't love her anymore I won't divorce for my children's sake - and secondly because I'll  let my kids pursue their passion and dream.
I realized as a teenager, that whatever my father was good at when I was young, and whichever one I thought was cool from them, I over-took him eventually. Same with my brother. He introduced cool things to me, and I unconsciously and eventually got better than him in most of them. And I still continue practicing those skills till now. I'll make sure my kids go through this process to choose what their career is going to be, and what their life is going to be. I'll give them experiences and opportunities. However, not so easily. They'll have to also have countless hopeless times to become tougher and better. I'll put them in the worst situation even if I'm rich, and if I'm poor, I have no choice but to put them in difficult situations.
I'll treat them strictly, yet not like an asshole. It will be hard, but I'll try from all that I've experienced from adults. My children will hate me for what I do to them, but eventually they will become the best people in the world and I'll be so proud of them. Then I'll show them that I love them more than anything, when they are strong enough to not be lost in the "unrealistic world of parents' love" and feel bad in the real, outside world where they will realize no one loves them. That happened to me. I couldn't get used to it. I had such a hard time. Now I learn that the world is not like how your parents treat you because your parents freaking gave birth to you and love you the most (wouldn't you love what came out of you?), while the world is ready to kill you. It's filled with other parents with their own children, which means they don't give a sh*t about you. There also are people who don't have any child and do not understand how it is to be a parent. Therefore I'm going to do my best to let my kids be on a different level, a level much greater that the world is not going to be a match for them. They will be too good to be affected by this stupid world.
That's how big my love is to my kids-to be. They are privileged. I'll grow them like Spartans (lol). Much better than me at least because I am a fail. I guess I was an experiment for the experience for the goodness of my kids.
With such a mindset, I think that I have the qualifications of a good parent.

I'll love my family to death. I'll never leave them behind.

Challenge 11

124. What outrages you? (Wake Forest)

The fact that I can't live the way I want to.
The fact that I'm so sinful.
The fact that I'm not so serious about the fact that I'm sinful.
The fact that I'm a filthy human being.
The fact that I'm lost in life.
The fact that I don't see the point.
The fact that my parents are spending so much on me and have given me everything they can and yet I'm not grateful or satisfied.
The fact that I'm not what I expected myself to be.
The fact that I'm so off the way.
The fact that I feel so hopeless.

Those up there are big, serious ones. They are fatal.
However, they are not evoked everyday. If they are, I would have already committed suicide.
These are the ones that apply more often:

Trying to do something - trying so hard but failing.
Girls daring to try to mess around with me when I have so many other things to care about already. Females are less worthy than men; at least me. They are only good for cooking, cleaning, and sex. (Except for my girlfriend who I love so much and can give up everything for and give everything to. I can even catch a grenade for her. I'll die for her! I love you just so you know if you are reading this! I didn't mean that - it was just a joke so don't feel bad!!! I still love you! I wouldn't have gone out with you otherwise. You don't know how much I think about you and care about you!) But really it pisses me off when other stupid girls challenge my position or authority. They can't possibly be looking down on me. I'm much superior to any female.
People trying to dig into my personal life.
Stupid people reading this gad-dam thing when I'm in the middle of writing it.
School.
Disability to escape my current situation.
Haters.